Not The Best Way

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I always thought the best way to express yourself is through words..

I always thought the best way to get what you want is through words..

I always thought the best way to be understood is through words..


But all my life.. I have never been so wrong..

Because words aren't the best way..

It cherises..

It also bursts you into flakes..


I don't know..


Maybe I'm just sick..

Sick of people.. who broke this heart over and over again..

And finally it stops here.. leaving me alone.. at the end of empty road..


No matter what I say..

No matter how loud it is..

And no matter how many times I try to explain..

Nobody will ever understand you better.. than yourself..


It's okay..

It's ended now..

As everything drains my soul into bones..

I promise to myself to say nothing.. 

But silence..

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