Joyful Christmas

Hello, everyone! Merry Christmas! 🎄🥳

The moment I wrote this thing down is already a day after Christmas. I have a lot of stories which I'm excited to share with you. This story will show you how God's love never leaves our life!

Alright, so this Christmas is the first Christmas without my mom as she is unable to go anywhere but staying on her bed. On the Christmas Eve (24th of December), it was a rainy afternoon and I felt a little bit lazy to attend the worship. I needed to have a cold shower, prepared myself, went everything all alone. It suddenly felt too much for me to do. Therefore, I talked to my mum and threw a joke on her, "Mom, it's rainy. Let's just skip the worship tonight, can I?" in a whimper tone. Then she stared at me and simply replied, "Don't lose your joy, dear.. You should be happy as you can go to church tonight when I can't even do that". Well, it hits me hahaha, because why should I complaint because it was raining? ☔😅

It's important to have someone who can remind you, right? I find that as a way of God, to pull me closer to Him.. to keep my perseverance.

So, I decided to go and as I arrived at church 6:30 PM, there were already a lot of people sat there with their family. It reminded me of how me and my mum used to walk in the church together and tried to find seats for us, then sat side by side. I could only force myself to smile, I really miss that moment. But then, there God showed me that He never leaves me alone. I met a friend of mine who is also a congregation, then just like that there was an encouragement of the Holy Spirit to ask her, "Can I sit with you? I go by myself tonight". Surprisingly her and her family welcomed me! So, for the rest of Christmas Eve I was sitting with them. Not only that, they also talked to me like a family. I... felt love that night. 

Next day isssss Christmas day! I went to church to attend the worship. The pastor preached that we have to keep rejoice in all circumstances in life. Why? Because Jesus is born and He is here to save us. I don't understand it at that moment. Many whys came to my mind! But I will show you how it correlates with a future event ahead. After the worship ended, families were gathered and took position to capturing moments of Christmas together. As they were doing it, I could only watch them with a feel of bitterness in my heart.. I asked Jesus, "Why Jesus? This should be my very first Christmas with mum as Christian..". Just seconds later, a friend of mum asked me to take a photo together with her family! We captured a moment in front of the Christmas tree, there were her, her oldest daughter, and the new born 3 months old baby. As I stood beside her.. my heart couldn't help but filled of joy. "YOU heard me.." I was amazed and smiled to the camera. I held back my tears. 🥺

Do you want to know what's more surprising? God's love does not stop over there!

In the afternoon, I visited my friend's house because he did Open House for Christmas day. Again, that was my first time attending an Open House in my life. Atmosphere of families and friends talking warmly to one another.. laughs.. and smiles that go from their eyes.. where have I been all my life? 

I also had a long conversation with a friend of mine which eye opening for me. We basically talked about.. how God never leaves us alone. Here it relates with the pastor preached in the morning. For God is our Saviour, He will save us from our sins. In my case, it is sin of feeling lonely and ungrateful. He loves me so much, that He won't let me dwell in these negative feelings. He showers me with His love, that I'm not alone but there I have families in Christ. It took time for me to realize it, how God has been soooooooooo gooood to me.

I can't stop smiling 'til today. 😄

What I want to highlight from my story is... I hope we can all reflect and put attention more of God's work in our life. Because if we want to see the good things He has done to our life, there's always gonna be things to be counted on. So, have you done it? Well, you should and you might surprise yourself.

Once again..
Merry Christmas everybody! May God's grace and joyful stay within our heart. 💗

God bless you! 😇