Dina Writes

I had no idea how many times my mom has yelled at me asking me to go out from my quarters ( read: my sweet room ). She liked nagging about this bad habit of me, when I can stay in my room for hours studying and ignoring everything. Well, not my fault. I just got immersed too deeply? Moreover, it altered me from a loving girl into an untouchable woman, totally! It'll need an alarm from my tummy to summon me out and socializing with family again haha. She is a great mother and I know she did it because she was worried. Why? As I tend to skip my meals and sleep time when I'm busy with something. Hence I got tired too easily for doing nothing. This, of course freaking her out. But apparently it took some times before eventually I come into realization how important health is. Peace hehe.😄 And here is the story of how I finally step into a decision of doing workout again, which was a real struggle for me~ I met this great person. He was a random stranger with thoughtful mind. The k...

"Love doesn't bite, unless you love the wrong person.". Love is pure feeling when emotional connection and physical connection between two persons exist. It makes you feel butterflies in your stomach.. think of him 24/7.. and something feel incomplete when he's not around haha. But is that it? No.. Unfortunately, it takes more than just a feeling to make the relationship work.  As a woman, you have the gut feeling when you meet a guy and he's the wrong one. You just know that he's the kind of guy who'll break your heart again. If so, why do we always fall with the wrong person? Why do we ignore all the red flags that we've seen in the early stage of relationship? It's simply because we think we can change him as the relationship goes which he doesn't. This is a thing about guy, girls. When he really loves you, he's going to try in his best to have you. And a guy is a simple human being.. if he's into you you'll know, the same thing ...

To love yourself can be a tough lesson for anyone.. including me..  I was not a popular person at school nor someone that could be liked by anyone at the first glance. I had no real friends since I was having a hard time to socialize. It was really hard to overcome it all alone, moreover when you got bad experiences about opening up yourself to people. It went worse at the peak of my high school year.  After I graduated from high school, I thought going on to different city will give me a fresh start. The ideas of meeting new circle brought butterflies on my stomach for the first time again. But ya, as you can expect it didn't go well anyway. Yes, I kept on meeting new people but still the wrong ones. Now, you maybe questioning why in the world did it happen? It happened because I didn't love myself. I didn't like the texture of my skin, I didn't like the way I smile, I didn't like the way I talk.. everything was wrong for me. I used to be so hard on myself every ti...

I always thought the best way to express yourself is through words.. I always thought the best way to get what you want is through words.. I always thought the best way to be understood is through words.. But all my life.. I have never been so wrong.. Because words aren't the best way.. It cherises.. It also bursts you into flakes.. I don't know.. Maybe I'm just sick.. Sick of people.. who broke this heart over and over again.. And finally it stops here.. leaving me alone.. at the end of empty road.. No matter what I say.. No matter how loud it is.. And no matter how many times I try to explain.. Nobody will ever understand you better.. than yourself.. It's okay.. It's ended now.. As everything drains my soul into bones.. I promise to myself to say nothing..  But silence..

  I have this thing where I get older but just never wiser Midnights become my afternoons When my depression works the graveyard shift All of the people I've ghosted stand there in the room I should not be left to my own devices They come with prices and vices I end up in crisis Tale as old as time I wake up screaming from dreaming One day I'll watch as you're leaving 'cause you got tired of my scheming For the last time It's me Hi I'm the problem, it's me At tea time Everybody agrees I'll stare directly at the sun but never in the mirro It must be exhausting always rooting for the anti-hero Sometimes I feel like everybody is a sexy body And I'm a monster on the hill Too big to hang out Slowly lurching toward your favorite city Pierced through the heart but never killed Did you hear my covert narcissism I disguise as altruism Like some kind of congressman Tale as old as time I wake up screaming from dreaming One day I'll watch as you're leavi...

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[Verse 1] Hold your hands up to your chest And tell me what you find Out of you, a sparrow comes And sees without its eyes [Pre-chorus] Don't forget who you are even though you are hurt You are caught in a wire and soon it will burst [Chorus] You can cry, drinking your eyes Do you miss the sadness when it is gone? (gone) And you let the river run wild (gone) And you let the river run wild [Verse 2] I'm a shadow, I am cold And now I seek for warmth Stitch your skin onto my skin And we won't be alone [Pre-chorus] Don't forget who you are even though you're in need Like a bird in the night, your emotions deserves to be freed [Back to chorus] [Bridge] You can cry, you can cry, you can cry To where the ocean is bigger Become a part of the river, ah You can cry, you can cry, you can cry Can you let the river run wild? [Chorus] You can cry, drinking your eyes ( You can cry, you can cry, you can cry ) Do you miss the sadness when it is gone? (gone) ( You can cry, you can cr...